Obviously I fell off the healthy wagon. I don't know what happened, but one Saturday I said let's have a cheat day. That turned into a 3 week bender. No exercise and pigging out.
To say I don't know why this happened would be a lie. I made excuses for myself that changed my mindset. For those interested my excuses and effects are below.
1) It kept raining so I stopped walking. Without walking I thought oh I'll just rest today. Then it happened again and again and again. Until I said fuck it.
2) my cheat day turned into a cheat weekend. Then shit at my job got CRAZY and I kept think I deserve a treat (I was really just stress eating), and, as always, I hit fuck it mode and ate EVERYTHING. Candy, chips, cake, bread, fried food, EVERYTHING.
At first I hated myself for it. Like was depressed about it, but then like always I just accepted it...
Here's the thing. This time has to be different. I have to pull up from ever noes dive. I just weighted myself. 433.4 pounds. At my lowest I was 429.2. So in two weeks of all fuck it mode I gained 4.2 pounds... Just 1% of my total. I can lose that in two weeks easy (and more if I can get 110% back on track).
Today is a new day.
Today is a new day.
